The Nanny's first day

Well that was interesting. At first, I was really nervous. Matt was too because he was having a hard time stepping out the door for the first time of leaving Clara with the Nanny, Carrie. Well, in actuality we did not leave Clara with Carrie since I was around the whole time! But still it was a big deal for Matt and I and even Clara had a hard time adjusting.

I was actually surprised by Clara's reaction to it all. She was not really comfortable with it and was sort of sour faced and sad about the whole thing. She started to cry when she was alone with Carrie and I heard it but I did not want to butt in right away because I know that Carrie and Clara need to start building confidence in each other. Anyway, so Clara was crying and eventually Carrie came down to me. She was so upset. And by she, I mean both of them now that I think about it. Clara had boogers running down her face and tears streaming down. As soon as I held her, she was whimpering still but eventually calmed down and was the normal baby doll after 5 minutes or so. It is just going to take some adjustment for her to get used to another person being with her. She got upset a couple of more times, and normally she does not do that at all. I did not realize that she cared that I was the one there for her so much! And she is only 6 months old. Needless to say, I was really touched.

After Carrie left, Clara and I sat on the couch together for a little while and she kissed me the whole time. She was hugging and kissing my face. It was so nice. I kept laughing and my heart was just singing. I love that baby and it was so nice to see how much she loves me as well and actually appreciates that it is me that takes care of her.

I think it worked out OK. I think it will be good for me and the baby doll. I don't want her to be too attached to me and have social problems because of it and for me, I need to start getting a handle back on work so we can make some money. It was nice to have a day like that. I think it will be better when Carrie is more comfortable with Clara and I am more comfortable with it too for that matter! It will just take some time.

I really just love that baby. She just makes me so happy and I really love having her in my life. She is my sweetie pie!